Instant Thought of Change

So what do you do when you feel like everything is crashing around you?

I write but that only suffices to a certain extent.
Letting out a good cry does some good for a moment, but those feelings i wish would just disappear, still remain
It's like I'm on a train that keeps going and going and going, and I don't know when or where it's going to stop.
I pray to God for some guidance, and I know He hears me but I don't feel anything moving.
Desperate for some answers I keep asking
Me, Myself and I
Reevaluating but I get stuck
Because I do not have all the answers, if any

It's like, in a sense, I'm at the end of a rope I'm constantly trying to hold on to with the hope of several things changing
The change won't start until I make the final decision that I want it.
I want it.

I want it all.

A new me, revised, re opened to the world I currently see, but to be able to see in different eyes
Still mine but in a different perspective.