Silent Answer

I don't know what to think or feel in certain situations
I could just let it be what it is and leave it alone
then again deep down inside i want to know
I want to ask..but the reality of it is do I REALLY want to know?
I'm silently wanting to ask questions that I think I may already have the answers to.
So now what do I do?
I can't sit up here and play "the fool"
that role ain't cool..
Yea I've made my mistakes but no longer can I be disgraced and feel out of place
So I sit down to pray, and state my case
"God, I know you hear me I'm callin' your name"
Then I patiently wait for an answer.
I wait and wait and wait.