Just A Random Thought pt1

For some reason i try
and stop
and try again
to come up with valid and plausible idiosyncrasies
as to why me
Why was i left in a corner
alone holding back tears
hugging my knees?
hugging myself so tight i could barely breath
my knees close to my chest
So close that my heart beat traveled through out my body to my ear drums then started beating on a different beat
back and fourth
several moments in time rewind in my mind
I can't seem to understand why
I'd rather go blind than to see you with her
but i love you too much that i actually hope you're happy with her

The love I have for you is
unexplainable
unsustainable, unmaintainable because regardless of how much writing i do
how many different guys i talk at the end of the day my thought is back on you.