What a Morning!

So today I woke up extremely tired; Dreading getting up to go take a
drug test for this job. Got up etc etc. Dressed. Good to go,right?!
Wrong!!! I unwrap my hair, my too cute hair due. I decide instead of
wearing it straight like I usually do that I would give it some life
and add a little flip to it. In the process I burnt out a few inches of
it. Yes, i burnt out my hair! I heard a sizzle. Sounds similar to a
Rice Krispie commercial. "SNAP,CRACKLE, and POP". But minus the pop
part, more so a crunch noise! A loud one at that!

I rolled my eyes and said "Lord!! Help me!" the devil is tryna get to me!" (That has been
my mantra since.) I said well at least it's short and in the process
of growing back instead of long like it was. If it were, I would have
been more pissed off than I am at the moment. I then decided to do a
minor wardrobe change. I wanted to add some color to my primarily
beige and brown outfit by adding a turquoise afghan wrap. It was
cute. Lively! The perfect addition and matched my toe nail polish. A
hole! Not a freakin hole!! Of course! No where other than right under
the armpit! Why? And I just took the tag off 5 minutes prior to
putting it on! So much for my splash of color.

I then begin to make my way out the house to only remember I'm
forgetting the address to the place I'm going. I stopped and thought
about it. "well I programmed the directions in my phone already". Then
on the other hand my sense of direction is shit. I thought again.
"Well what if I do get lost, the telephone number is on the paper".
Thoughts processed through my already frazzled, confused, and
irritated mind. I turned around and went back to my room and grabbed
the paper. On my way out the house for the second time. I step outside
into the garage, noticed the light had been on all night. "If dad had
known that he would've raised a ruckus!" I opened the door and put my
purse and papers on the seat then turned the car on so it could warm
up. I threw some trash away and thought about bringing the trashcans
in then decided not to. 'On the way back home this afternoon I will',
I thought to myself.

I get in the car and decide to put some lotion on my arms. I
absolutely love the smell of 'Moonlight Path'. It's my car lotion I
never take it out. I attempt to squeeze the bottle. There is barely
anything in it. Splat! Into my hands the cold purple lotion goes into
my hand. Then I look down and notice a dot on my beige suede like
pants! Everything I say at this point is to myself. I've become to
frustrated to speak aloud. "Cleaners here I come. I have some things to
pick up anyway so that works out perfectly. I wiped it off, took a
deep breath, and out loud I softly spoke the words "Lord help me!! The
devil is tryna get to me". I turned the heat on and proceeded to my
destination. No traffic. Yay me! A park right in front of the
building. Turned the car off and sat for a few minutes. "Lord, Thank
you for getting me here safely", I said to myself.

Quick appointment in and out, and on the way back home within 30 mins.
So in the process I'm talking to three of my very good friends about a situation that has been bugging me. I was ready to leave well enough alone, but for the sake of my own curiosity and validation I decided to get conformation straight from the horses mouth. I already pretty much knew the answer, but like i said..validation was needed. I must say the response that I received somewhat had my in mind confused mode. Somewhat like i was seeing stars just with the exception of the knock out part.

Luckily, and for that person's sake, I didn't have the energy to go completely bonkers or anywhere close to it. The fact of the matter is thankfully another chapter to the book of 2009 was closed before the New Year entered. YAY ME!

I must say 2009 brought plenty of tears, but out of the tears brought extremely good works of poetry! Everything that I've experienced through this past year in someway or another has made me a stronger person. Several people have told me that there is a light that shines in me. This year I'm breaking the chains of fear and letting the light shine with God on my side. I will re-emphasize the fact that even though things may seem bad someone will always have it worse. So I thank God for the good, bad, and the ugly. I'm alive, breathing, have use of all my limbs, senses, can feel emotions, and have wonderful talents that I will put into better use this year.

I have no resolutions and don't intend on making any. Reason being, its just more things to attempt to do. Why not just cross out things on my list already?! I'm just going to accomplish what I already have underway. Sounds good to me!

HAPPY 2010!